Ashes and Wings

  • Heavy

    Metal, soft female vocals, gritty, sinister, angsty chorus, dark punk, rock, gothic, dark wave

    Feb 24, 2025

    I wonder why I never realized...

    But I can't think that way.

    I wonder how I couldn't see the signs,

    But love is blind, so they say.

    Heavy,

    his heart and his mind

    Can anyone carry this weight inside?

    Breathing,

    the smoke that’s settling in

    Seeps into my lungs, but I need oxygen.

    I could not save you

    Even if I wish I could

    Could not erase you,

    Don’t even know if I should,

    Can I forgive you?

    This burden you carry

    Is getting too heavy

    Now it's your turn

    I will not be the one to blame.

    I refuse to be drug down.

    He did this to himself and now

    A reckoning is bound...

    I could not save you

    Even if I wish I could

    Could not erase you,

    Don’t even know if I should,

    Can I forgive you?

    This burden you carry

    Is getting too heavy

    Now it's your turn

    Heavy, his deed and his story.

    Can’t fix it by just saying sorry

    I know, It's what you learned,

    And now it's your turn

    I could not save you

    Even if I wish I could

    Could not erase you,

    Don’t even know if I should,

    Can I forgive you?

    This burden you carry

    Is getting too heavy

    Now it's your turn (Now, it's, your turn)

    I could not save you

    Even if I wish I could

    Could not erase you,

    Don’t even know if I should,

    Can I forgive you?

    This burden you carry

    Is getting too heavy

    Now it's your turn (Now, it's, your turn)

    This burden you carry

    Is just too damn heavy

    Now it's your turn (Now, it's, your turn)

  • Wings

    Dark, alternative, femme fatal, dirty, painful song about being overwhelmed, grunge, lucid dream, nightmarish

    Feb 23, 2025

    Why are there so many emotions.

    Can’t tell right from wrong

    Washing over me just like an ocean

    God I don't belong

    Save me from myself

    My addictions creeping in

    I say I don't need help

    but it's burning my veins

    Craving the pain.

    Here I go again

    I'm so tired.

    So sick of the same mistakes.

    Am I wired

    To bend until I break

    I just wanna be free

    If only I had wings

    I just wanna be consumed by unemotion.

    Taken over by numbness.

    Can I drown in my own destruction.

    Is that what they call peace?

    Save me from myself

    My addictions creeping in

    I say I don't need help

    but it's burning my veins

    Craving the pain.

    Here I go again

    I'm so tired.

    So sick of the same mistakes.

    Am I wired

    To bend until I break

    I just wanna be free

    If only I had wings

    It's too much.

    Like everything I’ve ever felt

    Rolled in one jagged pill, it won't go down.

    And I swear,

    If I could change the way I am

    I could find my way, up off the ground.

    Save me from myself

    My addictions creeping in

    I say I don't need help

    but it's burning my veins

    Craving the pain.

    Here I go again

    I'm so tired.

    So sick of the same mistakes.

    Am I wired

    To bend until I break

    I just wanna be free

    If only I had wings (I would fly away)

    I just wanna be free (yeah I'd fly away)

    Oh why can't I (fly away)

    If only I had wings (fly today)

    If only I had wings

    If only

  • Sinking Ships

    Female vocals, sea chanty, goth pop, ethereal pop, otherworldly, Alto, dark and moody,

    Feb 24, 2025

    So many things are on my mind

    I haven't the words to say,

    And still so many things I've said

    I wish to take away.

    Things said in hurt and anger

    Spoken like arrows to the heart,

    Piercing deep and unexpectedly

    Like a stranger in the dark.

    Have I caused you pain

    With the poison from my lips?

    I hate that I’m this way,

    But I’m forever sinking ships.

    So many things I wish to say,

    But only silence passes through.

    Wishing I could erase the pain,

    And somehow begin anew.

    Have I caused you pain

    With the poison from my lips?

    I hate that I’m this way,

    But I’m forever sinking ships.

    How do I apologize

    For the way that I have been,

    How do I look you in the eyes

    While I’m rotting from within.

    Speaking before thinking

    These ships are sinking

    Have I caused you pain

    With the poison from my lips?

    I hate that I’m this way,

    But I’m forever sinking ships. (they’re sinking)

    Have I caused you pain

    With the poison from my lips?

    I hate that I’m this way,

    But I’m forever sinking ships.(they’re sinking, they're sinking)

    Have I caused you pain

    With the poison from my lips?

    I hate that I’m this way,

    But I’m forever sinking ships.(they’re sinking, they're sinking)

  • Okay

    Female vocals, slow, sad, desperate, gloomy, nightmarish, dark, puppets,

    Feb 23, 2025

    I wish I could wake up

    Feels like a dream

    Everyone's angry

    Nothing's as it seems

    And I ask myself

    Am I ok

    I ask myself

    Everyday

    And we're crying out

    Smiles are lying now

    We're hiding how lost we are

    And we're reaching out

    We're screaming now

    And I'm asking how, is this ok? (Is this ok)

    How is this ok?

    Wish I could break free

    Leave everything

    I wish the world could see

    What's underneath

    And I ask myself

    Am I ok

    I ask myself

    Everyday

    And we're crying out

    Smiles are lying now

    We're hiding how lost we are

    And we're reaching out

    We're screaming now

    And I'm asking how, is this ok? (Is this ok)

    How is this ok?

    Everyone's pretending that time is never ending

    And nothing's wrong

    There's no one left to see, the puppets are dancing

    'Cause this poison's strong

    And I asked myself...

    Are we ok

    We're breaking down

    Most everyday

    And we're crying out

    Smiles are lying now

    We're hiding how lost we are

    And we're reaching out

    We're screaming now

    And I'm asking how, is this ok? (Is this ok)

    How is this ok? (Are you ok?)

    And we're crying out

    Smiles are lying now

    We're hiding how lost we are

    And we're reaching out

    We're screaming now

    And I'm asking how, is this ok? (Is this ok)

    How is this ok?(Are you ok?)

    (Is this ok?)

    (Are you ok?)

    (Am I ok?)

    ..

    But nothing's changed...

  • Red

    Gothic, Ethereal, Alto, haunting Female vocals, dark, moody, longing, pained, Strong powerful belting Chorus

    Feb 24, 2025

    Blue eyes shine through the sky

    That smile breaks through the night

    I’d keep you by my side

    As we wash away in the tide

    Hold on for dear life

    See the light leave your eyes

    I could have saved you

    Had I been there

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red

    The sun is setting On our time

    The moon is rising Tonight

    Our end is only the beginning

    Hold my hand my head is spinning

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    In Red

    In Red

    In Red

    There's nothing but your tears

    I'm still here beside, your broken

    Time has come the melody’s sung

    And your mind has come undone

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    In Red

    In Red

    In Red

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    Cover these wounds

    But your bandages fall

    And cover your world in red (in red)

    In Red

    In Red

    In Red

  • Mirror

    Metal, female vocals, mix of screamng and singing, rise and fall, powerful chorus, soft whispering ending,

    Feb 21, 2025

    Some days I ask myself

    What is the reason

    Why do you put me through this

    Like I'm committing treason

    Can you tell me why?

    Am I….

    Still here!!!

    Tell me why

    Am I…

    Drowning in fear

    Scream!

    I wanna scream at you.

    Scream!

    I just wanna get through

    Scream

    Like there's anything that’s gonna do

    Scream!

    Scream!

    You know, I'm just like you.

    And I know

    I’m sabotaging my own life.

    Again

    Can you tell me why?

    Am I….

    Still here!!!

    Tell me why

    Am I…

    Drowning in fear

    Scream!

    I wanna scream at you.

    Scream!

    I just wanna get through

    Scream

    Like there's anything that’s gonna do

    Scream!

    Scream!

    Can you hear me?

    Can you see me?

    Why won’t you… just answer me

    I'm drowning again

    Reaching within as I look in the mirror and… Scream

    Scream!

    I wanna scream at you.

    Scream!

    I just wanna get through

    Scream

    Like there's anything that’s gonna do

    Scream!

    Scream!

    Scream!

    I wanna scream at you.

    Scream!

    I just wanna get through

    Scream

    Like there's anything that’s gonna do

    Scream!

    Scream!

  • Haunting

    dark wave, alternative, femme fatale, dirty, lucid dream, nightmarish, disturbing, lullaby, cathartic, ghostly, whispers

    Feb 24, 2025

    Minutes, hours, and days go by

    They turn into months and years

    No matter which way I turn

    The pain you left is still here.

    Your memory still haunts me

    Everywhere I turn, I see your face

    If anybody asked me,

    I’d say you are the one thing I wanna erase

    Oh you dreadful spirit,

    Don’t you taunt me no more

    Though you don’t want to hear it

    I won’t run like before

    So just leave me

    Don’t deceive me

    And let me be

    Free from you

    Won’t you let go

    Don’t you yet know

    You are just a ghost

    In my eyes

    Why do I still suffer at your hand,

    Though you can not touch me, you still leave scars

    And they say time is mending,

    But this pain is never ending it’s still so strong

    Oh you dreadful spirit,

    Don’t you taunt me no more

    Though you don’t want to hear it

    I won’t run like before

    So just leave me

    Don’t deceive me

    And let me be

    Free from you

    Won’t you let go

    Don’t you yet know

    You are just a ghost

    In my eyes

    I gave you everything I had, but you wanted more

    All that’s left is this memory, but what is it for?

    Oh you dreadful spirit,

    Don’t you taunt me no more

    Though you don’t want to hear it

    I won’t run like before

    So just leave me

    Don’t deceive me

    And let me be

    Free from you (Free from you)

    Won’t you let go

    Don’t you yet know

    You are just a ghost

    In my eyes (My eyes)

    Won’t you leave me

    Don’t deceive me

    Just let me be

    Free from you (Free from you)

    Won’t you let go

    Do you yet know

    You are just a ghost

    In my eyes (My eyes)

  • As My Smile Dies

    dark wave, alternative, femme fatal, dirty, lucid dream, nightmarish, disturbing, lullaby

    Feb 24, 2025

    Momma warned me about men like you

    Don’t let them near she said

    Their words like flowers for your ears

    Will swirl around in your head

    So what do I do now we’re face to face,

    you’re looking into my eyes

    I’ve seen the red flags on the way down

    Still I fell for your lies

    You are my poison

    And I will drink you to my death

    And I will relish

    That I gave you my final breath

    Breathe in

    Breathe out

    Don’t you think about

    The fear

    In my eyes

    As my smile dies

    You’re a killer

    And your past lovers can’t say it’s true

    You left them all for dead

    You fed your ego through the years

    And I still never felt dread

    ‘Cause you’re my poison

    And I will drink you to my death

    And I will relish

    That I gave you my final breath

    Breathe in

    Breathe out

    Don’t you think about

    The fear

    In my eyes

    As my smile dies

    You’re a killer

    And though you’re no good for me

    I give you my love freely

    I’m under the spell you cast

    And this love will be my last

    You are my poison

    And I will drink you to my death

    And I will relish

    That I gave you my final breath

    Breathe in

    Breathe out

    Don’t you think about

    The fear

    In my eyes

    As my smile dies

    You’re a killer

    Breathe in

    Breathe out

    Don’t you think about

    The fear

    In my eyes

    As my smile dies

    You’re a killer