Slow, otherworldly, waves crashing, cold, organ glitchsynth Atmospheric minimal, post-glitch, female vocals

Mar 18, 2025

The truth

I think that it's time I spoke the truth.

And accepted it.

The thing is… I deserve more than this.

Why's it so hard to walk away

When I know the things you'll never say

I can't spend the rest of my time

Begging you to see with eyes that aren't mine

There was a clause in the contract of our love,

When I said I'd always love you, said I'd never leave,

Its something I wanted to do, so long as you did it too.

You have left me here alone.

Grasping at straws on my own

Naked and bruised in the in between

Wondering if I should stay or leave

But love shouldn't be this way

I gave all that I had

And you left me with…

Nothin'

How long can a poor man

sit on a check for a million

before he cashes it in?

You live in squalor and filth,

Hold the key to your freedom and still

They begged me to save you,

but you didn't want me to

There was a clause in the contract of our love,

When I said I'd always love you, said I'd never leave,

Its something I wanted to do, so long as you did it too.

You have left me here alone.

Grasping at straws on my own

Naked and bruised in the in between

Wondering if I should stay or leave

But love shouldn't be this way

I gave all that I had

And you left me with….

Nothin'

This isn't up to me and I'm not going to be the one to blame.

I gave all I had and you left me

No choice.

There was a clause in the contract of our love,

When I said I'd always love you, said I'd never leave,

Its something I wanted to do, so long as you did it too.

You have left me here alone.

Grasping at straws on my own

Naked and bruised in the in between

Wondering if I should stay or leave

But love shouldn't be this way

I gave all that I had

And you left me...

electronic rock, dance music, burlesque-influenced dark cabaret, and emotional ballad, male vocals, space rock, scream

Feb 28, 2025

Suffocating under the pressure

Of the things that I must do

Gotta play the part for my family

Am I even a priority to you

I give and give and give

You take and take away

My confidence erased

What more can I say

Don't you see me

I’m drowning

Grasping at my sanity

Giving it my best

Oh God please tell me I can rest

Do you even know

How much it hurts to exist

Still I push through it.

Still I'll endure it

This is more than I can bear

Do you even care?

Things you did for him

You don’t do for me

I sacrifice all I can for you

Am I getting through?

Don’t you worry, I get it.

I’ll never be enough,

Don’t ever do enough,

Just feel like giving up

Don't you see me

I’m drowning

Grasping at my sanity

Giving it my best

Oh God please tell me I can rest

Do you even know

How much it hurts to exist

Still I push through it.

Still I'll endure it

This is more than I can bear

Do you even care?Don't you see me

I’m drowning

Grasping at my sanity

Giving it my best

Oh God please tell me I can rest

Do you even know

How much it hurts to exist

Still I push through it.

Still I'll endure it

This is more than I can bear

Do you even care?

If I find God does not exist

and all that awaits is nothingness

that'd still be bliss

Anything is better than this

Don't you see me

I’m drowning

Grasping at my sanity

Giving it my best

Oh God please tell me I can rest

Do you even know

How much it hurts to exist

Still I push through it.

Still I'll endure it

This is more than I can bear

Do you even care?

Do you even know

How much it hurts to exist

Still I push through it.

Still I'll endure it

This is more than I can bear

Do you even care?

Oh God I'm overwhelmed

Please don't let me down

dark pop, indie pop, goth-pop, emo pop, ambient, deep emotional, atmospheric, female, symphonic metal

Mar 13, 2025

The world passes me by

Silhouettes dancing in the sun

I look on from behind these eyes

Stuck inside the prison of my mind

Memories like falling leaves

Gently floating by in a river I designed

I cry for the way I used to be

Still I'm sitting in my room as life passes me

So why can't I move

Do the things I long to do

No arms to hold me back

There’s nothing that I lack

Somebody tell me why

These chains are holding me down

I can't seem to find the way out

You say they're my own design

So why am I still trapped inside

These chains

I have dreams

Of the kind of person I want to be

And everyone says if I wanted to

There's nothing I couldn't do

So why can't I move

Do the things I long to do

No arms to hold me back

There’s nothing that I lack

Somebody tell me why

These chains are holding me down

I can't seem to find the way out

You say they're my own design

So why am I still trapped inside

These chains

Some days I believe in myself

I feel capable and free

I walk to the door as it slams in my face

I hear the turn of the key

I look through and see

The prison guard is me

So why can't I move

Do the things I long to do

No arms to hold me back

There’s nothing that I lack

Somebody tell me why

These chains are holding me down

I can't seem to find the way out

You say they're my own design

So why am I still trapped inside

These chains

Dark, twisted, femme fatale vocals, demonic, sassy, bitchy, dub step, beat drops, otherworldly demented, powerful chorus

Mar 27, 2025

I wish I had more restraint.

I apologize

for not being

very good at staying away.

It's only ‘cause I care

No that’s a lie

It was so I’d feel better

But I wanted you to think

I needed to see

If you were ok

I wrote a song for you,

To memorize

Our love

like it happened yesterday

To show you I love you

No that’s a lie

It was so I’d feel better

but I wanted you to think

I gave you

More than you asked for

I just want you to know

I hold

no regrets.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I loved you.

I’m not sorry for anything

Except that I did it all for me.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I loved you.

I’m not sorry for anything

Except that I did it all for me.

I gave you everything,

To emphasize

That there’s

nothing I wouldn't do for you

So you could understand

No that’s a lie

It was so I’d feel better

but I wanted you to think

I was more

More than you ever dreamed

I want you to know

I hold

no regrets.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I loved you.

I’m not sorry for anything

Except that I did it all for me.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I loved you.

I’m not sorry for anything

Except that I did it all for me.

I wish I could be cold, I wish I felt nothing

And you’d become a fuzzy memory

Im sorry that’s a lie, I'm already numb inside

And everything I did was for me

I’m sorry, I’m not sorry.

I want you to know

I hold

no regrets.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I pretended to love you.

I’m not sorry for anything

I’m not sorry I did it all for me.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I pretended to love you.

I’m not sorry for anything

I’m not sorry I did it all for me.

I'm not sorry I met you.

I'm not sorry I pretended to love you.

I’m not sorry for anything

I’m not sorry I did it all for me.

I want you to know

I hold

no regrets.

feisty-pop, r&b, female raping, London rap, London pop, alternative pop, sassy, bitchy vibes, gangsta vibes, beat drops

Mar 21, 2025

I'm wondering why would anyone want to be

such a miserable excuse for a human being.

Is your beautiful life so damn hard, man

That why you always mad then?

Girl, you said you had a good man

Said he made you happy

Made you feel nothing...

else mattered

What a crock of shit.

You still make me your punching bag.

Funny thing is,

I don't even care about that

I don't care if you hate me

Don’t care if you love me

Just care that you

stay the hell away

from me

No one said we had to be friends.

Why you tryin’ so hard?

Braggin’ ‘bout your success

You say you’re livin’ in bliss

Then why are you such a bitch?

What a crock of shit.

You still make me your punching bag.

Funny thing is,

I don't even care about that

I don't care if you hate me

Don’t care if you love me

Just care that you

stay the hell away

from me

Go on girl, live yo’ life girl

Nobody’s stoppin’ you

Or is it that you a liar

Your life’s a house fire

And none of what you said was true…

It was all a crock of shit.

You still make me your punching bag.

Funny thing is,

I don't even care about that

I don't care if you hate me

Don’t care if you love me

Just care that you

stay the hell away

from me

What a crock a shit

I don't even care about that

I don't care if you hate me

Don’t care if you love me

Just care that you

stay the hell away from me

Cuz' baby you a bitch

Sleepy, raspy female vocals, dreary, rainfall, stormy, tick tock, methodical, rhythmic, spoken word, London rap

Mar 27, 2025

Please…

Don't ask me how I'm feeling

I really don't know

Don't ask me what I'm thinking

I don't know that either

My thoughts fly by so fast

I can't keep track

like trying to find the winner of the ant races in static

People ask, "How are you?"

But do they really mean it

I don't have a real response

It's an automatic answer

"Good, and you?"

I never sleep anymore...

My mind is always on overdrive

clocked in with overtime

No breaks

And I can't afford the labor

Please would you do me a favor

And Don’t ask me

Please…

Don't ask me how I'm sleeping

I really don't know

Don't ask me how I’m getting by

I don't know that either

I'm a twisted form lurking in the shadows of my mind

Night comes

my lights are on, No one is home

People ask, "How are you?"

But do they really mean it

I don't have a real response

It's an automatic answer

"Good, and you?"

I never sleep anymore...

My mind is always on overdrive

clocked in with overtime

No breaks

And I can't afford the labor

Please would you do me a favor

And Don’t ask me

Please…

Don't ask me how I’m feeling

I really don't know

Don't ask me what I’m thinking

I don't know that either

Night owl by name, Slave to my thoughts by trade

I tried to escape

but that's like trying to hide from your own skin

People ask, "How are you?"

But do they really mean it

I don't have a real response

It's an automatic answer

"Good, and you?"

I never sleep anymore...

My mind is always on overdrive

clocked in with overtime

No breaks

And I can't afford the labor

Please would you do me a favor

And Don’t ask me

PLEASE

JUST LEAVE

ME ALONE

I'M BEGGING

I surrender

sobbing on the floor of my own mind

I am my own private enemy number one

and I am undone

What have I done...

People ask, "How are you?"

But do they really mean it

I don't have a real response

It's an automatic answer

"Good, and you?"

I never sleep anymore...

My mind is always on overdrive

clocked in with overtime

No breaks

And I can't afford the labor

Please would you do me a favor

And Don’t ask me

I never sleep anymore...

My mind is always on overdrive

clocked in with overtime

No breaks

And I can't afford the labor

Please would you do me a favor

And Don’t ask me

Please

spoken word, london accent, rap, female vocals, female rapper,

Mar 27, 2025

I met this man once...

He made my heart soar...

He told me he loved me...

Then left my heart sore.

I found a new man,

to cover the pain.

lo and behold though...

outcomes the same.

So I went on a search

for somebody new

someone to love me

and always stay true.

what did i find?

a nice handsome guy

to hold me at night

and tell me new lies.

It’s time to move on,

gonna go it alone

Finding the love I need

all on my own

from stockpiling heartache

to learning to fly.

I’m free to go through it

the hurt I ran from,

and come out much stronger

than when I’d begun.

My heartache was worse now,

not just one pain,

but it seemed I was stockpiling

like I needed heartache for rain.

The cycle seemed endless

like a frenetic binge

shoving my heart full

till I was unhinged.

Somehow I woke up

Mid-relationship

after I'd caught myself

attached at the hip.

This new guy was gentle

sweet as can be

but the real fear I had

was the monster in me.

It’s time to move on,

gonna go it alone

Finding the love I need

all on my own

from stockpiling heartache

to learning to fly.

I’m free to go through it

the hurt I ran from,

and come out much stronger

than when I’d begun.

I'd become callused

dependent on pain

and I knew where it was heading

its always the same.

I decided to stop

before I hurt him

stop grabbing up heartache

from the 50 cent bin.

I put down my bags

full to the brim

from my "replace the man" spree

that started with him.

That man I met once

who sparked it all

the cycle wont stop

till I make the call.

It’s time to move on,

gonna go it alone

Finding the love I need

all on my own

from stockpiling heartache

to learning to fly.

I’m free to go through it

the hurt I ran from,

and come out much stronger

than when I’d begun.

Time to let go no

Gonna go it alone

Time to move on

and come out much stronger

than when I’d begun.

and come out much stronger

than when I’d begun.

than when I’d begun.

intro, sensual, dark, desperate, longing, ocean, smoky female vocals, building chorus, lifts, up and down,

Mar 27, 2025

This disease creeps in

Sinking into my skin

Filling my heart with dark

Absence and Void

I just want to be filled

I just want to be filled again

Cloudy vision

through these tears

Knots are spinning

I feel the turning

Inside my tortured body

Fill me up

Try to fill my cup

It's never enough

He isn’t what I need

Neither is he

Neither is he

Neither are you

Neither is he

When will I find what I need?

Yet again

I’m fading

Pieces torn from this empty jar

This vessel as it were

I just want to be filled

I just want to be filled again

Flowing Constantly

Replacing it with more of the same

Blood fills and Flows,

Spills and Pours

Give me life

But man can not live

on bread alone….

Man… Men…

More men….

Empty again

Drowning in sin

Fill me up

Try to fill my cup

It's never enough

He isn’t what I need

Neither is he

Neither is he

Neither are you

Neither is he

When will I find what I need?

Head is spinning

like a rush from the waves

Wash away my thoughts

They’re carried away

Waves build up, waves fall down

They go in, They go out

He…He Is like a wave

Fill me up

Try to fill my cup

It's never enough

He isn’t what I need

Neither is he

Neither is he

Neither are you

Neither is he

When will I find what I need?

Fill me up

Try to fill my cup

It's never enough

He isn’t what I need

Neither is he

Neither is he

Neither are you

Neither is he

When will I find what I need?

They never stay

“Oh God” I cry

Maybe next time…

I can be the one to wash away